I'm not feeling particularly positive today.  Someone I absolutely love has decided that I'm not good enough to grace their existence any longer....and here's the shitty party - they won't even say what I did to ruin our friendship.

I have a big mouth. I tend to say what's on my mind. I blame my last pregnancy. I lost my brain to mouth filter and I never found it again.  Even taking my poor brain to mouth filter into consideration, I have looked at everything I said and this is ONE TIME in my life I can genuinely say that I have no idea what happened.

Ttthhhhbbb. I'm going to go console myself with some super hot coffee and a cheese quesadilla (which I suppose will lead to be post on my second blog about Fat Camp. 

Is it really so different?

I'm not sure if "finding" is still an appropriate title.  I am happier with who I am, size I am, where I am, then I have been in years. Despite being happier and more content, today feels like a blah sort of day. No, it isn't the snow...its just a lack of energy and missing the people back home.